I'll admit right away that having babies made me sappy. I was never as sensitive as I am now.
I am blown away by my kids and sometimes my love for them is painful. Like I look at them sleeping and it feels like my heart blows a gasket and for an instant I feel real physical pain.
Yesterday Iggy and I went on a mini-date and we sat the restaurant and of course we talked about the kids.
I told them that now that I'm getting more of a sense of their personality and quirks I feel awed that they're mine. That God really gave me these little people to love and raise.
We're still young parents so we didn't have a long single life without kids, but it's still mind blowing to think that during our lowest low's and what we thought were our highest highs, God had these two little ones waiting around the bend just for us. We've had other unexpected things, both good and bad happen of course, but nothing is as potent as life.
I'm not saying life is all sunshine and rainbows, there's still plenty in my life that I wonder what the point was, or loose ends that drive me crazy, but knowing that ultimately God has a plan for everything even if I don't see it yet gives me peace.